Virtuous Daughters

What Is Your Life-Purpose? Part 1

Hi girls!

My name is Sharon and I am one of Samantha’s younger sisters. I want to share with you what Yahweh has been teaching me over the last couple of months.

When I graduated high school, it was really fun not to have school work each day, and to have the whole day to do whatever I wanted  . . . that is . . . for a little while. Within a couple of months, I had this nagging thought of “now what do I do?”

Over the next couple of years I tried to ignore this thought as best I could, but every once in a while it would pop up again and I would get really discouraged, wondering, “What is the purpose of my life? There has to be something more. I have to be missing something. My life feels so empty and meaningless. What do I do that someone else couldn’t take over doing without even noticing my disappearance? I help clean, cook, and do chores, but, when I’m gone for whatever reason, my siblings pick up the slack without even a hiccup in the way the house runs. Sure, I help my mom teach my younger siblings school each day, but the other girls could take over that if I wasn’t here, and even if they couldn’t, is that the only reason I am alive?” I would try to find something to do or study that would fill up my time enough so I wouldn’t think about how empty I felt about my life, which would “work” until a short time later when the same empty feelings would pop up again.

Sometimes it would be something I could study, other times it would be weeding our garden whenever I started to feel like I wasn’t accomplishing anything with my life, sometimes it would be canning, etc.

While I had something to study, I felt really good about my life, because now I not only had something to fill up my time, but I also had a purpose to each day (doing that day’s lesson) and a goal to work towards (finishing that book/course). Life was great as I worked towards finishing each course, excitedly looking forward to accomplishing what I set out to do and reaching my goals. But, as I would get to the end of my courses, that excitement and anticipation would turn to dread as that old familiar feeling of emptiness would return along with the same old question of “now what?”

I always dreamed of getting married and felt like that was Yahweh’s will for my life at some point, so after graduating high school, I really started focusing on preparing for marriage (studying marriage, relationships, etc.) and trying to prepare my character, etc. for the day when I would be a wife. I dreamed about it, I thought about it, I planned and prepared for it, and, most of all, I waited for it – day after day, month after month, and . . . year after year.

Well, Yahweh continued to impress on my heart how purposeful-less my life was, and how much time I was wasting by just living from day to day, with no knowledge of what my purpose in life was or how He wanted me living it out.

When Yahweh showed me this, and really convicted my heart about it, He brought me to a place where I completely surrendered everything to Him – my life, my future, whether or not I got married, everything- and started me on what I call my “quest for answers”. What was my purpose in life? Was I already living out my purpose and just not realizing it? How was I to even go about figuring it out? The bible has all the answers, but where was I supposed to start?

Over the next couple of posts, I would like to take you down the journey that Yahweh brought me down, to share with you how I was able to find out what my life purpose was, in hopes that if there are others out there with the same questions, it will help serve as a guideline for you, too, to find out what your  life purpose is.

Until next time,

Sharon