Virtuous Daughters

I don’t generally write specifically to my older singles, but today I felt the need to.  This may or may not apply to those of my younger readers, but you are more than happy to read it anyways.

So…

Have any of you ever approached your birthday with a gloomy spirit before? Most people would consider birthdays a joyous occasion, but I have to admit, this year has been a bit different for me.  I almost, no, okay…I did, feel dread as the day approached.  For me, it signified yet another year without my Beloved.  As I looked at the number 26, it felt odd and foreign. I never dreamed that I would hit that number, without being able to celebrate it with him by my side, yet for some unforeseen reason, Yahweh has decided that that would be best.

I sat here last night and just wanted to cry.  How was it that I could miss someone so much, that I haven’t even met before?!  How I could feel so lonely? I wanted to cry out to Yahweh and beg Him to please bring my Beloved to me, wherever He was, yet I knew that it would only happen in His will and in His time.  Nothing, even my screaming, would bring him to me a day sooner.  

I wanted one thing, and yet I knew it was impossible to get it.  I never dreamed that Yahweh would test me so many times, asking me to continue waiting, eight years after I honestly thought I would be married.  I never dreamed I wouldn’t be married at 18…at the very longest, 21.  But here I am at 26 with my Beloved nowhere in sight and I couldn’t help but to feel down and out about it.

But you know what, Yahweh showed me something last night and again this morning.  So often I feel like I put my future husband above my Heavenly Husband and Love of my life.  Here I am complaining that once again, a year went by without my Beloved, yet what I failed to think about was, I DID have my BELOVED by my side! He has been by my side for 13 years now! Not only that, but as unworthy as I was and am, He still chose to over look my faults and choose me to be his wife, when He could have chosen another.  But no, that day, 13 years ago, He came to me and chose me.  How can you not feel special thinking about that?!

You know, my sisters, sometimes we get to dwelling on the physical side of things.  We dream about the day we will be married and will be able to pour our love onto the man of our dreams.  We dream about loving and serving him.  Yet, how many of us dream about our spiritual bridegroom? How many of us dream about how we can love and serve HIM better? Yet, we should care for Him, even more than we do our physical husbands.  Yet how many of us, even knowing how to please Him, do? How many of us, knowing what would bring Him true pleasure, do those very things?  If we were married to an earthly husband, it wouldn’t matter what people thought of us, we would still do that which would please our husbands.  So why then, do we often find it so difficult to do the very same thing, to our spiritual husband, Yahshua? Where’s the difference, girls? In reality, there really shouldn’t be any difference, yet we all know that there generally is.

May Yahweh grant us the strength to focus on our relationship with His son, and our heavenly bridegroom, Yahshua!  May we all feel, instead of the gloom at yet another year without our physical husbands, dwell on the fact that we have been gifted with yet another year WITH our spiritual husband, Yahshua!  And may we spend this next year sincerely doing that which we know would bring Him pleasure and delight.  May He grant us the strength to take that stand for righteousness, regardless as to what others may think or not think.  For my sisters, this relationship is what really matters.  Yes, I very much look forward to the day that Yahweh will join my hand with that of an earthly man, but never should our earthly husbands come before that of our heavenly husband.